Just Fun

I Don't Know Why Leesa Calls Me A Goob

Again We Play

I Believe I Can Fly

Sis and I had some time to ourselves, so we went to play. I jump. She captures.

Friday Feet

A Little Fun

We went to Kootenai Falls today. Beautiful place to hike and relax. There is a swinging bridge to cross and such...the water is still too cold to swim in, but we waded a bit.
Hopefully I will get some jumps in soon.

I had to do a jump...even with the water freezing. We are getting busy playing we do have some work to do tomorrow, hauling hay. That will be fun...I will need the hot tub.

We Are Out Of Here

Yes we are flying out Monday. I must get to the cliffs, the water is calling me.
My awesome sis made it possible for us to come see her, which we weren't sure we were going to be able to do. I am so thankful.
I am ready to work...hay, garden,lawn, animals,I need my therapy. Cody is ready to get away from the city and play outside. Go camping and fishing.
The best part of going hangin with my sis, we talk so much on the phone its nice to see her and talk. Who am I kidding the best part is all the playing. Hehe...
So I will catch up with everyone after we get there. Have a great weekend...

My Mind Right Now

I woke up this morning with a lot on my mind.

How all this could turn out, and if I will make the right decision, not really the fact that I could have ended all this yesterday by agreeing with the other side and giving in to his request.
I guess let me recap yesterday for you.

The other side gave an offer to let him have primary custody and I have Cody all summer and every other school holiday, like Christmas and such.
Well that is what I would get if I lost in court, the standard visitation, so why give in, huh? Fight! I feel if I am going to lose at least lose and not give in. They will have to take him from me, I wont hand him over.
But I wonder if Cody will understand that I did all I could. And on that note, will he realize that the other side didn't take his own feelings into consideration. Cody has begged his dad not to take him away from me. But, he didn't listen. And some may say that he is only 8 he will understand one day, hell I know he understands now. He is smart.

At one point I was told that I didn't have a good chance due to who was on my side, and that I lead a lifestyle that isn't 'normal' and open to eyes in this town. OMG please, we raise him wonderful, we do a good job is what I am trying to say. Just because we are two women, he still has two parents here and we share the responsiblity. Something the other side can't do.
Now the big thing I can't stop thinking about is if Cody has to be returned to the other side will he feel like I don't care or should I be closer to him.
Yeah I was offered to go with Cody and help parent him with the other side. I would have had to move in with the ex. Forget the fact that I have a life here or a partner. And forget the fact that I have plans to move to MT. It's almost as if the other side plans on using that against me. In the future. "oh your mom didn't want to be close to you" or "she left you" Yeah my mind is going ninety to nothing.

I was told once that I should look at his side and I do. I know he wants Cody and I know he will take care of him. But I also know he can't to the things I do. He wont be in and out with Cody's friends and letting Cody ride his bike all day. He just wont let Cody be himself. Right now Cody is just realizing he can express himself and it's ok.

I have a month th prepare myself for this, I can't help but prepare for defeat. I have to, or if the time comes I wont be ready.

Make sense?

It Didn't

We are going to trial!! He gave me some offers that just blew me away. And never once did he consider what Cody would want. So we keep fighting.
I have to prepare myself for possibly losing Cody...I guess I just don't fit the profile of a good stable mom or that I can provide a good future for him.
I am kinda done with this for a bit. I need to relax and keep my mind on something else for awhile. I will explode if I don't.
Thanks to you all for the warmth and care, I love you all and apperciate the words.
I will let you know what happens next.
I need a vacation!!

First Attempt

We have our first mediation tomorrow afternoon. I am not to hopeful but you never know. I am pulling out the big deals and the only thing I have to offer "my son is happy why change that".
We are set for trial in Aug. so tomorrow might prevent that. I hope.
Cody got his first pet yesterday...a gerbel, her name is Leah. All Cody wants to do is play with her, but she is a bit scared. She is only a baby. Cutest thing. I will get a pic soon.
Thanks for all the birthday wishes..I had a great day.
Happy Monday

Oh Thank Heaven!

If anyone can get to a 7-11 today you must go...7cent slupees all day! Cool huh!
And thank you all for the birthday wishes... 35 I am old

Cody's Photos

This is what Cody thinks is worth taking a pic of....I wonder!

Our 4th....

We did our thing last night...it was fun, just us and the artillary. We were all by ourselves at the plant. I think everyone had a blast...Cody couldn't sit down, he got to light his own this year.

Friday

Yeah I should have a pic of feet here, but I haven't taken it yet...Happy 4th to all. May your fireworks fun be eventful and safe.
We are going out to the plant(sue'e work) to shoot ours off, this year Cody will run the show, if he can tear Sue away..this is her favorite holiday ever she is a pyro all around. Cooking out of course with friends and then off we go. Eh, it's going to be a long night. But well worth it...