My Thoughts
I got so much going on in my head I need to get out...I feel like I should be careful. Not for fear of outsiders but personal issues.
It is 6wks till Cody leaves and I can't keep my mind busy enough. I am non stop 24/7.I keep Cody busy to, if he sits idile for too long he gets all sad and starts asking if I can try to go to court again so he can stay.
He still doesn't understand..
He does accept that he has to go and he says he will make the best of it, I think he will.
I think after time passes he will see that I am still here and that he hasn't lost me. As to the last time he thought I was gone for good..
yeah he may be smart but he is still 9 and still scared/confused.
I don't know how to feel right now. S says I should keep Cody from seeing me hurt, which is hard. I haven't even realized the wrath of this.
Right now I want to cry, but I don't do that right..lol
So I could just keep busy and then we don't have to think about it right?
Works for me.
It will be a great Christmas but also a sad one...he leaves December 27th...
Other than that we are just us...school, scouts, work and play.
I think I should get my feelings out more, but here that isn't the way to do it. Sucks!
Have a good Sunday, what's left of it...
It is 6wks till Cody leaves and I can't keep my mind busy enough. I am non stop 24/7.I keep Cody busy to, if he sits idile for too long he gets all sad and starts asking if I can try to go to court again so he can stay.
He still doesn't understand..
He does accept that he has to go and he says he will make the best of it, I think he will.
I think after time passes he will see that I am still here and that he hasn't lost me. As to the last time he thought I was gone for good..
yeah he may be smart but he is still 9 and still scared/confused.
I don't know how to feel right now. S says I should keep Cody from seeing me hurt, which is hard. I haven't even realized the wrath of this.
Right now I want to cry, but I don't do that right..lol
So I could just keep busy and then we don't have to think about it right?
Works for me.
It will be a great Christmas but also a sad one...he leaves December 27th...
Other than that we are just us...school, scouts, work and play.
I think I should get my feelings out more, but here that isn't the way to do it. Sucks!
Have a good Sunday, what's left of it...
posted by Amy at
8:37 PM
3 Comments:
OMG I can't even phathom how hard this is going to be for you. (((BIG HUGS))) I wish I had something to say that could make you feel better.
I think it would be ok to show Cody how much you'll miss him. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. If I were a kid, I think I would rather know my Mom will miss me so very much.
I still hate D. He's such an ass for doing this to your son.
M~
Sending good thoughts your way Amy. Keep your chip up kiddo!
Stacie
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